It’s been said that we’re never given more than we can carry. For Elizabeth Jordan, the weight almost became too much, leading to attempted suicide and alcohol abuse before she was able to make it back from the depths of hell to find a sliver of light.
After Jordan lost both a boyfriend and fiancé in separate accidents, she crawled into a bottle of vodka to cope, only to emerge a year later to become the victim of a botched surgery. As she struggled to recover—at many times in so much pain that she couldn’t stand—she cared for her aging parents. Her father, suffering from Alzheimer’s, often didn’t recognize her and claimed that she was an intruder. Weeks later, her mother was put on life support, creating a schism between Jordan and her sister that continues to exist. Jordan shares her story in her new book, The Darkness of My Shattered Heart, a heartbreaking and uplifting memoir pulled from her journal and diary entries.
The Darkness of My Shattered Heart speaks honestly and openly on many levels: Jordan’s struggles with her aging parents; the reality of signing a DNR to take her mother off life support; the unexpected loss of people she loved; and the anguish of dealing with a mishandled hysterectomy.
Jordan has shouldered enough tragedy for several lifetimes—so how is she still smiling? She says this is the most common question she’s asked by readers. “It’s the result of several different things. People I’ve met. Strangers. Journaling. Determination,” Jordan says. “Little things along the way helped pull me out of the darkness.”
According to Jordan, all of us grieve in different ways, and that’s one of the most important themes of the book. She says one thing she’s learned through the years is that no one truly understands what you’re going through, even if they’ve had a similar experience—grief is a unique challenge for everyone.
The Darkness of My Shattered Heart is an inspirational and emotional memoir about how one woman overcame incredible loss and pulled herself out of the darkness and into the light. For more of Bookworm, order your copy of The Summer Issue here.